Here's the thing.

I don't understand many things. But one of the things I most yearn to understand, is the human being. How it works. Why does it work. And most of all - what the fuck it's thinking.

So, here's my problem - according to Einstein - everything is relative. If someone was, to say, conduct a research or follow through with a project, then different people were to look at it very differently. My example being my own project that I led. What's more important - the way it's carried out - meaning the correctness of the lector, the working of all the electronic devices and what not, OR the reason why it was carried out and the effect it had on the people involved in the project?

Let me say that - my lector was excellent, really great - she lectures to the Tartu University for heaven's sake. And the examinators said she was the only one good thing in my project. I agree - she was wonderful. Although - half the people in the 7th grade that were there, almost fell asleep. Now, I'm not saying there was anything wrong with her speech, it's just that it was 45 minutes directed to 13-14 year olds. Now, they can't sit still for more than 25 minutes. Not possible.

And then there was I - they said I lectured very dully . . . OK, understandable - but my topic was laws. So I lectured boringly about laws - how about that? Really now - the children themselves gave me feedback about the doctor's lecture being dull and, on the other hand, learning so much about the laws which deal with minors and tobacco and alcohol. Right - but altogether - what's it worth my complaining here? Nothing - they made their decision. They looked at it from another perspective and almost flunked me. So, in their eyes it was important that the lecture was as long as possible and the children would fall asleep half way through. Not important, though, was the fact that the children got the message. Alrighty then. I don't know if it's my instincts that are wrong or are theirs, the examinators' instincts. For now - I have to analyze it and come up with something purposeful to combat them with when I go to protect my project.

I'm sure I'll have more to comment about that later on.