Interesting

I've always known that I can't express my emotions, feelings, thoughts or anything of that sort clearly so from now on I'll stop. Easier for me. I know I'm a self-centred prick, but, hey - that's just who I am.

Now. It's finished. I'm still glad to be out of that idiotic bunch of people. What I'd like to see . . . is all those people in 10 years. I doubt that all those stupid grins are still there. Possibly a few dozen will have drunk their brains away and another few dozen will have realized their own stupidity and quit the job they acquired through sweat and blood. We'll see.

There are still a few aspects of my life to figure out and I will . . . someday. Right now I'm a bit busy with tearing my apartment apart. So, I get to express all my feelings through destruction . . . rather than expressing them to people concerned.

At home with my parents again. And this time . . . it's all the same as it has always been. I can feel something giving way. And I doubt that it's a good thing. Something's going to happen pretty soon and I fear that the outcome will be not desirable for me. Again - we will see. :) So far, so good. But all fairytales end eventually the same - "And they lived happily ever after!" Nope - "They were only human so they bickered and fought each other for their entire life until one gave up and died and the other remarried."

There are no happy endings - it's a preposterous idea . . . If a relationship has a happy ending, that would mean everyone were perfectly happy with the outcome . . . that's impossible. In any case, the ending itself marks the end - a relationship will never end. If you don't communicate at all with the person anymore - the relationship is still going on, only in a non-communicative manner. Now, I know that once again I'm not making much sense. But that's just me.

To end today, I'd like to quote someone: "I always assumed that I'd find someone before you did!" Suggestive, no? And from "Penn & Teller's BullShit" - absence of evidence is not evidence of absence. . . again - very suggestive and completely false.