I know, I know. I haven't written anything for so long. Let's get down to business then.
The reason why I haven't written anything is that nothing has happened that needs to be talked about. Although - recently school kind of ended. So that's always nice. But I feel like I didn't finish it all. All - means all relationships with my mates there. By mates I mean all the people that went to the same school. I feel like something is left dangling. It might be relationships with my teachers, my peers or with myself (yes, I do have many relationships within myself and they're not all good).
Isn't it funny though - the more we think, the more we worry? I recently attended a mass-kind-of-thing and it left me with a head full of questions. The speaker said that we needen't worry - leave it all to God. What kind of advice is that? Don't worry - God will handle all things that need to be handled. I was baffled with that statement. I never thought any Christian would ever give me that kind of advice. In my mind (I know I misinterpret such thing often), the guy said - God gave us free will but no chance to use it for doing good. He Himself handles all these things. He actually said that we need not to worry about mundane tasks like tests at school, relationships, work etc. What the hell?? So I'm supposed to live my life, making all the right decisions and still I'm not in control of my own life? OK, so if I trust God, He will know what's best for me and will make it happen. So why give us free will in the first place??? It's so controversial - "hey, here's free will, use it well, but know that I'm in control anyways - so it doesn't matter what you do with your free will, I control your life no matter what." Another thing - a very controversial fact - they usually say that we must take responsibility for our actions, right. It's a known truth. Although, a few days ago I heard the exact opposite - the responsibility for all the major decisions lies entirely on God. Spare me, please! Let me know when you've made up your mind, OK?
In order to teach and spread a religion, one must be persistent and consistent, right? Correct me if I'm wrong, but what kind of a religion is it, where everybody takes a portion of the Holy of Holiest Books and lives by it? Not the entire book, but just a part of it that suits best with the ideas of the person or the group to which one belongs. It's the same as taking the Constitution or the Estonian Principal Law. No way are you allowed to follow only a part of the rules. There are penalties for disobeying the rules. It should be the same with every religion - if you exclude a part of the Book by which your community (famil, Church, whatever) leads it's life - there should be a penalty for that. But no - every group believes that no matter what part of the Holy Book they follow and obey their final goal will be heaven/Nirvana/eternal bliss/reincarnation.
Despite being repetitious - religion is a deeply PERSONAL experience. For some reason I don't really get all choked up about a book that describes miracles that took place 2000 years ago, while the book itself was written almost 600 years after all the miracles took place. How come the book stops there? What happened next? The Holy Books describe something until a certain point. But if they should be considered to be books on the religions' history, I call that the book is incomplete. I am fairly certain that the religions' history ended where the Holy Book ended at. It would be the same to write a history book (write it in the year 2009 A.D) describing a town called Tartu. "It was first mentioned by an arab geographer in 1030 etc . . . up until the point where Tartu was one of the main trading routes operator on the Pärnu-Peipsi line during Middle Ages in the 15th and 16th century." That's all - no books will ever cover the time in between now and the time the book stopped at. And even if there are such books, these are not considered to be on the same level as the first one. Let's take the Bible. Why are there no (religious) books describing Christianity from where it stopped to the Nicaen creed, which was the time, when the Bible was composed through a vote? Why? There are history books related to the theme but they're not considered to be important for faith of Christians. Right. What happened? Christianity was put on hold for several hundred years? Surely something happened. Did they mourn Jesus for all that time? Did they consider that the Bible was sufficient enough - no need to cover any other event in history? Or did they decide it was best to leave the rest out, which to me seems the most obvious way of handling such a crisis.
Bear with me just a moment more. Somehow I just can't trust a religion based on Sun worship, with most of the world as followers never even knowing the fact. Christianity is not original. It is not even the oldest religion. Judaism in general, buddhism, taoist beliefs all hail the arrival of the so-called Messiah. All at different times and different places. Why is Christianity The Correct Religion? I don't get it and probably never will. I hope that billions of people haven't wasted their time going to church every SUNday and when the Apocalypse arrives they'll be on the escalator towards the Golden Gates of Heaven and they'll be able to say to me: "Told you so!" Hopefully my sister and the whole Risttee, Salemi and Kolgata congregations and all pious and good people will be there. I wish them well and finally I'll be able to say: "Forgive me Father for I have sinned and the biggest sin was against You! And I know now that I was mistaken but let me rejoyce one last time for all the people who made the right decision in their heart - I was sad enough to not be able to accept You in my life and heart!" For some reason I feel there will not be only Christians on the escalator, I believe there will be deeply pious and great human beings who have never even considered Christianity, but instead chose Buddhism or any other religion or no religion at all. But they were just great people and they lead good, honourable lives and inspired others to do so as well and they were pure of heart and they lacked the hatred I possess oh so much.
I believe! But not as you do, who try and fill my head with even more confusing stuff every weekend. Don't be so controversial and hypocritical and I'll consider you with more respect.
Belief in a Supreme Being (Christ, Buddha, Faith, Zeus, Poseidon, whoever you want) has led many people to better lives and purer hearts and for that I thank all the religions and personal beliefs in the world. Thank you, but I have found My Way and it may be wrong, it may mean I'll suffer forever for the consequences, but at least I can, before my death look at others and hopefully say that yes, I made a mistake and you were right. May you have a long and glorious eternity! Be safe my readers and try and be kind to all around you! Please.
The reason why I haven't written anything is that nothing has happened that needs to be talked about. Although - recently school kind of ended. So that's always nice. But I feel like I didn't finish it all. All - means all relationships with my mates there. By mates I mean all the people that went to the same school. I feel like something is left dangling. It might be relationships with my teachers, my peers or with myself (yes, I do have many relationships within myself and they're not all good).
Isn't it funny though - the more we think, the more we worry? I recently attended a mass-kind-of-thing and it left me with a head full of questions. The speaker said that we needen't worry - leave it all to God. What kind of advice is that? Don't worry - God will handle all things that need to be handled. I was baffled with that statement. I never thought any Christian would ever give me that kind of advice. In my mind (I know I misinterpret such thing often), the guy said - God gave us free will but no chance to use it for doing good. He Himself handles all these things. He actually said that we need not to worry about mundane tasks like tests at school, relationships, work etc. What the hell?? So I'm supposed to live my life, making all the right decisions and still I'm not in control of my own life? OK, so if I trust God, He will know what's best for me and will make it happen. So why give us free will in the first place??? It's so controversial - "hey, here's free will, use it well, but know that I'm in control anyways - so it doesn't matter what you do with your free will, I control your life no matter what." Another thing - a very controversial fact - they usually say that we must take responsibility for our actions, right. It's a known truth. Although, a few days ago I heard the exact opposite - the responsibility for all the major decisions lies entirely on God. Spare me, please! Let me know when you've made up your mind, OK?
In order to teach and spread a religion, one must be persistent and consistent, right? Correct me if I'm wrong, but what kind of a religion is it, where everybody takes a portion of the Holy of Holiest Books and lives by it? Not the entire book, but just a part of it that suits best with the ideas of the person or the group to which one belongs. It's the same as taking the Constitution or the Estonian Principal Law. No way are you allowed to follow only a part of the rules. There are penalties for disobeying the rules. It should be the same with every religion - if you exclude a part of the Book by which your community (famil, Church, whatever) leads it's life - there should be a penalty for that. But no - every group believes that no matter what part of the Holy Book they follow and obey their final goal will be heaven/Nirvana/eternal bliss/reincarnation.
Despite being repetitious - religion is a deeply PERSONAL experience. For some reason I don't really get all choked up about a book that describes miracles that took place 2000 years ago, while the book itself was written almost 600 years after all the miracles took place. How come the book stops there? What happened next? The Holy Books describe something until a certain point. But if they should be considered to be books on the religions' history, I call that the book is incomplete. I am fairly certain that the religions' history ended where the Holy Book ended at. It would be the same to write a history book (write it in the year 2009 A.D) describing a town called Tartu. "It was first mentioned by an arab geographer in 1030 etc . . . up until the point where Tartu was one of the main trading routes operator on the Pärnu-Peipsi line during Middle Ages in the 15th and 16th century." That's all - no books will ever cover the time in between now and the time the book stopped at. And even if there are such books, these are not considered to be on the same level as the first one. Let's take the Bible. Why are there no (religious) books describing Christianity from where it stopped to the Nicaen creed, which was the time, when the Bible was composed through a vote? Why? There are history books related to the theme but they're not considered to be important for faith of Christians. Right. What happened? Christianity was put on hold for several hundred years? Surely something happened. Did they mourn Jesus for all that time? Did they consider that the Bible was sufficient enough - no need to cover any other event in history? Or did they decide it was best to leave the rest out, which to me seems the most obvious way of handling such a crisis.
Bear with me just a moment more. Somehow I just can't trust a religion based on Sun worship, with most of the world as followers never even knowing the fact. Christianity is not original. It is not even the oldest religion. Judaism in general, buddhism, taoist beliefs all hail the arrival of the so-called Messiah. All at different times and different places. Why is Christianity The Correct Religion? I don't get it and probably never will. I hope that billions of people haven't wasted their time going to church every SUNday and when the Apocalypse arrives they'll be on the escalator towards the Golden Gates of Heaven and they'll be able to say to me: "Told you so!" Hopefully my sister and the whole Risttee, Salemi and Kolgata congregations and all pious and good people will be there. I wish them well and finally I'll be able to say: "Forgive me Father for I have sinned and the biggest sin was against You! And I know now that I was mistaken but let me rejoyce one last time for all the people who made the right decision in their heart - I was sad enough to not be able to accept You in my life and heart!" For some reason I feel there will not be only Christians on the escalator, I believe there will be deeply pious and great human beings who have never even considered Christianity, but instead chose Buddhism or any other religion or no religion at all. But they were just great people and they lead good, honourable lives and inspired others to do so as well and they were pure of heart and they lacked the hatred I possess oh so much.
I believe! But not as you do, who try and fill my head with even more confusing stuff every weekend. Don't be so controversial and hypocritical and I'll consider you with more respect.
Belief in a Supreme Being (Christ, Buddha, Faith, Zeus, Poseidon, whoever you want) has led many people to better lives and purer hearts and for that I thank all the religions and personal beliefs in the world. Thank you, but I have found My Way and it may be wrong, it may mean I'll suffer forever for the consequences, but at least I can, before my death look at others and hopefully say that yes, I made a mistake and you were right. May you have a long and glorious eternity! Be safe my readers and try and be kind to all around you! Please.
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