Religion

Even a show called "Bullshit made a story about Christianity and faith in general. They ended that night's show with a sentence: "Keep thy religion to thyself!"

They believe, like I do, that people need to believe in some higher being, force, power - whatever that might be. I, for one, believe our lives are foretold. But not by one mythical being, no - by us... Simply. I honestly believe that everything I have done, ever, will and does impact my present life and my future. So, in my mind, we choose our own lives and destiny by living the life we live. Therefore, I am not opposed to religious people - I said, I understand that they have chosen to live like that. I'm not one of those people to wake up every morning trying to figure out how to serve Him better, how to distribute God's word, how to make others believe, I just am not.

I just try, just in case He exists, not to make Him too mad and angry at me. So I kind of keep on the safe side.

Now, why I can't be a Christian . . .
Well, for one - God (yes, God whoop-de-doo) forbid if I should turn in to one of those moronic people Robin Williams describes - "the kind of people who come knocking at your door 6:30 in the morning, asking "Have you found Jesus?" and you just want to come to the door nude and reply "No, help me look for Him, come on!"
Secondly - As prematurely dead Mr Carlin said about religion - (excerpt from a stand-up - might seem out of place here, though, out of context, perhaps) "What's the use of a divine plan, if any moron with a 2-dollar prayer-book can fuck this plan up?" In my mind this denotes promise. The promise is that if you believe, then your prayers will be "answered" (more on that later on), and the controversy begins with the divine plan - that the Apocalypse will come after Anti-Christ has been and after that will be redemption day. And then things get out of hand - some say all believers will go to heaven. Others say all true believers go to heaven. Still others claim that there is space in heaven for only a handful of people - 147 or something like that. There are more and more claims - I am not familiar with them all.
Secondly . . . or thirdly, for those keeping track (Robin) - That's what I can't accept . . . controversy . . . The Bible, all religions are full of it. I am a practical person who likes to theorize sometimes, but I can't wrap my mind around faith. There seems to be a completely different understanding of the culture and religion by all those, who are a part of that religion. And there's the opinion of other people - not religious at all, but with a logical mind and a snappy mouth. And there are also the facts - I mean here science. Oh, and while we're at it - logic - well, that is something religion is very uncomfortable with.
All in all - there's too much to debate about - I debate enough already - I do not need create more problems for myself.

The end for now - If I get feedback, I'll probably ignore it, so feedback is obviously expected.

Yay - I've got time. Finally

Well (always a good way to start a blog), as I said previously - I have really missed blogging. I like it, because it helps me relieve the pressure that accumulates during everyday life. In general - a lot has happened and nothing at all has happened. Which would you like hear first? No matter - I'm not going to dissect my personal life in front of all you people . . . 4 in total, I understand. :) Instead I'd like to share a thought - just as an introduction for the next piece of material I'm soon going to write.

"Religion is a deeply personal experience" - one of the best sentences I've ever heard. It's taken from a computer game - GTA San Andreas . . . That's spooky, right? Well, for me anyway. But religion for me denotes a much deeper experience than I've ever felt. My views on religion have changed during the years - At first I didn't give a rats ass about a "higher being", "intelligent design", "evolution", "God", "fate", "faith". . . etc. Then I found Christians - I found them for three years . . . I kept on finding them throughout these years. I found out that they are really nice people - they never hold grudges, never get angry for more than a few hours, never swear. . and so on and so forth. And I loved them - I loved their views on life - and found out that I share their opinions. The only thing I couldn't share, was their love for God - I still can't. It's just impossible for me.

Why is it not possible? What did I do among Christians? Why did I leave? All these questions shall be answered soon.